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life drains life

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Maybe it's just me

Maybe it's also you.

When I feel too much joy it ends up 

taking pieces of me.

I feel parts fading

over and over again.

Sure it's being replenished by various sources but that does not make it less invasive.

Every time I enjoy myself I fear repercussions.

I dread the low after the high

Like crashing from a sugar, drug , or whatever high

You sometimes forget it's coming until it's too late.

But once it slaps you across the face with an iron rod, you regret

You think twice about your choices and your decisions.

What lead me here? What lead you here?

How did we get to this place?

How do we get out and do we really want to?

The human mind is a very confusing idea.

It makes stuff up as it goes, as it falls, as it tumbles and crashes.

It shatters into a million pieces just so we can put it back together.

Life drains Life.
20.3.19 02:43


what color are your thoughts today?



is it a bright and shiny day?

a day where red and green and blue sparkle in the brisk winter air?

where colors mix and wondrous creations emerge from deep within your soul?

where worlds spring from your imagination that let you dream of the perfect future?



or is it a dark and gloomy day.

a day where black and grey are dripping from the cracks that make up your fragile foundation.

a day that has your heart oozing darkness because there is no more light to be found.



Or is it something in between?

a day where colors are not present

a day where it all intertwines , making it impossible to tell.

making it impossible to want to tell.

making it an insignificant thought that you couldn’t be bothered by.

is it one of those empty, lifeless, dreamless, thought-less days?

you know,

the kind that exist , but really do not.

the kind that

go by in an instant after what seemed like an eternity

the kind that spring from a thought and end in none.



when it feels like a snowstorm

the sort that makes the world go numb and silent

that drowns out the noise of life itself.

that drowns all life

that drowns you.

you drown.
16.3.19 03:05


i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish iwhsiwhwdiwhhshs

the wish is always the same

it is always something different

it is never what i am

it is never what i have

it is always what i want

it is always the future

never the present

sometimes the past

how can it never be now

why can it never be me?

i need to come to terms 

not only with my expectations 

but also with my desires

my hopes and dreams are not what they need to be

they need to be attainable and achievable

not stupidly idealistic

naively reaching for the sky 

when all i can do 

is stare from the ground

stare into a future that might never exist

turning it down never seems to be an option

i never seem to be the right option

the right choice

how do i change my preference?

how do I change?

how.
22.2.19 03:57


happiness, crashing, crash

like coming off of a sugar high

the morning after one to many 

its creeping 

until its not

its washing over me

until it drowns me

it pounds me

then i;m crushed

its crashing, then i crash

happiness crashing , the aftermath of something great

i'm still deciding if it's lower than what was before or

if it just feels stronger because its coming from a higher place

it is so hard trying to hold on

trying to keep the feeling alive

when all it does is

slowly wither

slowly die
20.2.19 07:30


Happiness Sadness Happiness

sadness happiness happiness

happiness happiness sadness

sadness sadness sadness.

its been a while

its been some time

i have wallowed in negative spaces for a long time

i have been searching for the other side since

since when, I don't know

I can't tell

I can't feel

It has eluded me again and again

but tonight

I found a glimpse

I felt a breath of it

the slightest touch caressed my spirit , tonight

tonight tonight tonight

i want to hold on but i know

i know that is not an option

i need to create more glimpses

i need to put myself in situations that are healing 

that mend my sould and repair my mental health

i don't want to have to cherish every soothing sensation 

i want to know

that behind the next corner

around the next bend

I will find another

and another

forever , until death do us part

until death becomes but a mere speck on the horizon

I want to build on this feeling

I need to build on it

So it can become the base of what is to come

So it can become the foundation of tomorrow

Because today,

today was good

today was perfect.

Thank you 

Thank you <3
19.2.19 21:40


You are my Paris.

You are my goal shrouded in clouds.

You are where my hopes and aspirations culminate.

Shiny, sparkly, and aromatic.

With every breath I can feel that you are what is missing.

Filling my lungs with a sense of euphoria.

My heart, skipping more than a few beats.

You are my Paris.

You are my destination.
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